Comments by ronniespanda

Comments by user: ronniespanda

Posted on: Rising use of painkillers taking deadly toll

I just lost the love of my lfe to an accidental methadone overdose.He had been on maintanance for four years but had now been clean for 5 years.We have a beautiful baby boy,3 months old,and have been trying our hardest to adapt and build a family.we've had good days and fusterating days....last wednesday was a fusterating and a little overwhelming for my boyfriend...we went to 7-11 and out of the blue some random guy came up to the car and wanted to know if we wanted any pills.I desperatly wanted him to say no.....but he felt he needed a little escape from reality for a day....I got upset tried to take the pills out of his mouth but ultimatly he swallowed them(80 mgs) I was hurt, i wanted nothing more than to live a normal sober life raising our son (up untill we met eachother we both lived crazy lifes with drugs,jail,&prison but that was our past....)
I didn't know what to do....enable him or let him know that drugs were NOT an option in our relationship I opted for the second and asked him to leave.......I never saw him again...I waited and waited for him to come home, I new he just needed an escape for a night,some breathing room,but when he didn't come home at check out time, I new something wasn't right.I waited all day ,till about 6pm... that's when the coroners office knocked on my door to inform me that the man I am so completly in love with,the father of my 3 month old boy,the person i looked my whole life for and finally found..... went straight to a hotel near our house to get some sleep,take a breather and never woke up.In a matter of minutes ALL my hopes and dreams were shattered with a few pills.methadone is VERY dangerous and changed my life and my sons life forever

(Suggest removal) 10/5/08 at 6:51 p.m.